of being away from civilisation

Yes, its been more than 4 months.

Which means ive done 1/3 of my PRP year. And i’ve wished that the year would come to an end since my first day of work.

4 months of being away from skyscrapers, shopping malls and fancy eateries (during weekdays nia la). It has definitely pushed my sanity to the limit not having all these ‘kemudahan’ i used to take for granted when i was surrounded by them. I used to love Penang but ive not been driven to the state of desperation of wanting to go back EVERY weekend when I was still studying in KL. Honestly, even Shah Alam was alright.

I dont exactly love my job so being away from home makes me hate it even more.

I dont mind playing my role as a pharmacist but if my weekends are sucked away doing gotong royong for the hosp, nonsensical ceramahs and what nots i think thats just pure rubbish. Im not even learning anything.

Maybe im not a sawah padi girl. I hate to live in deprivation. I feel inadequate. Im still too young to be living in a slow town. If im 60 then maybe its a different story. For the time being, i just want to be home:(

on a happier note, payday is in 5 days time..wooohooo!!

two oh one oh

year 2009.

a year of achievements.

of learning.

of being a nomad.

of fun and good times.

love.

of lifelong friendships.

of checking out what the other side of the world had to offer.

of having to grow up overnight.

being independent.

i am definitely looking forward to what 2010 has to offer:)

but plspls lemme transfer back to my hometown.ive had enough of being a nomad. that would be my best xmas present this year. not too early to ask for one eh:P must always plan ahead:P

where is the love

An uncle walked in confused with all his hpt,ihd and diabetes medications. He didnt know what was for what. After explaining to him and labelling his meds in kickasss huge handwriting and how to take them, the uncle suddenly told me, ‘sejak makan ubat ini semua, pakcik tak ada tenaga’.

i wondered for awhile what could he possibly mean. I did not know how to ask if its sexual dysfunction delicately.Cos it could be due to his beta-blocker.  So i asked him if its lethargy. He said no.’pakcik tak ada tenaga batin, waktu malam tu lah. tenaga itu la. bila makcik nak bermanja dan bergurau, pakcik tak ada mood, tak cukup tenaga.’

And he was too embarassed to tell the doc. Cos shes a chinese lady. For a moment i thought, huh, am i not one? Minus the doc part. That aside, the pakcik broke down and cried. In front of me.

‘ Saya tak mau makcik salah faham pakcik tak sayang dia lagi. Kamu faham kan, orang tua juga mesti ada kasih sayang. Pakcik sayang makcik, tapi tak cukup tenaga batin. Dulu pakcik askar, memang kuat. Sekarang pakcik malulah.Ini sakit, itu sakit. Bila pakcik malu, pakcik keluar dengan kawan kawan. Takut nanti makcik pula salah faham pakcik berfoya. Cik fahamkan, perempuan memang lebih sensitif.’

He was telling me all these between sobs.

I talked to him a little while sumore and gave him a few options to overcome his probs.

He felt much better when he left the counselling room.

I made a conclusion, his wife is one lucky woman to have a man who still loves her so much at this age. And undertands so perfectly how a woman is like. Envious gila

one month

Today officially marked ONE month i worked in Kangar. I lost track of time till my sister reminded me of my misery haha.

The pros of working in a less busy hospital; u work less compared to others. But mind you, we have our busy days. Just that we are not consistently busy..

The cons; I have 2 researches to complete INDIVIDUALLY. and all the prp requirements were increased. And i know ive complained to MANY ppl. Thanks KK for being as semangat as always helping me think of my title even though it has nth to do with u:)

Given a choice, i would rather work like a dog. period.

say hi to nightlife again

So i’ve survived my first week in Kangar. My orientation week. All alone. Minus the first few days you were here to help me adjust. I can never be more thankful:)  Made new friends and thank god the seniors were nice. And also those pembantu farmasi who were never tired layaning my questions. They seemed to hav the coordinates of the meds imprinted in their head. They can  point to the EXACT drawer of any drug i ask them. Been doing filling and labelling and wee bit of extemporaneous dispensing the whole week. And assisting a senior with Dangerous Drugs (DD). Gosh all those protocols reminded me so much of PP3.I’ve only worked for 4 days and it felt like years already. Gotta learn cos i will be stationed in OPD for the next 2 months. Thought i would be thrown to manufacturing like another collegue. Can goyang kaki ma. hehe.I hope tuesday doesnt come so soon sigh. Still, ive got to count my blessings that home is just 2 hours away and work is only 5 mins frm where i live.

Whilst some of my frens were slaving away in hosps on 9.09am 090909, i was in klinik kesihatan getting the final part of my medical examination done. Yea, what an auspicious way to celebrate a day like this. I actually forgot the date till i noticed the hype in fb n msn. But no biggie lah.

In denial trying to lose count of dates cos the day im suppose to report in Kangar is drawing nearer. Hate the thought of readapting to another new foreign place. When will I stop being a nomad?

sorry for the long hiatus. last 2 weeks i was in pg island cos my outstation frens came over. then went to hong kong for a week. the weather was so humid can die ok. but the desserts were just too awesome for words.i’ll be leaving to kl tmr for my convo.gosh i felt like ive not rested enough. Pls i hope i wont get my posting so soon i need to laze summore. And with the thought that the chance of  getting ANY hosp in PG is equivalent to Chanel giving out free bags, i am so NOT looking forward to start work:(:(:(

when the boy is sick he desires the pillow more than me pftttt

i have evidence k

hes gonna get it when he recovers. ngek ngek

back to bolehland

So yea, ive been home for almost a week and practically ate everything there is to eat. id better stop or else i would have to revamp my whole wardrobe haha.

And yea ive not seen the boy for precisely two friggin days and i already miss him. I am so not looking forward to work why cant it rain cash and everybody does not have to go to work anymore and live happily ever after eeesh.

Im still taking naps during midnight and sleep at wee hours in the morning sigh hello brain ure back in malaysia stop screwing up my sleep hours like this can or not zzzz..

And ive lost temporary interest in shopping. i reiterate, TEMPORARY. maybe i still miss Buchanan and Argyle i have not picked up the mood here yet. haha. everybody must be heaving with relief:P

human beings in BM pls drag me out of my hse i promise i will try to be entertaining:P haha

leaving on a jet plane. soon

so yeah, for the first time while everyone was out shopping at Zara sales, im STUCK at home with my lappie cos i have massive logistic probs. I can foresee the next few days stressing over packing my stuffs and unpacking em. wth, am I gonna spend my last few days in Glasgow like that blueks.

This time next week i will probably be feasting on hawker’s delicacies in my ol town. wheeeee~~~

and oh btw, GREECE was amazingly breathtaking. No pics can do the place any justice. I miss all the little tofu houses in Santorini and Mykonos. And the sunset. And hot Greek guys. And the seafood..oo la la

this place tops all the places ive been to.No one can say no to beeeutiful islands:)

Will blog abt it if i can EVER find time..toodles:) Time to stress over my lugagge again:P