Yes im still alive

Sorry for my 8 months hiatus.
I cant find anything to type about because i dwell too much in my unhappiness in miserable perlis if i were to blog every post would sound like ‘ I Hate Perlis’ or ‘ Perlis is so Pathetic’.

So yea, my high hopes to leave Perlis was crushed when both my application and appeal to go back to my beloved hometown failed due to to the gov’s laziness to do ‘pergerakan jawatan’ end of the year. Its funny how these sloths made this reason sounded so reasonable.

Well, I’ve given up being pissed with the gov, it gives me nightmares and unnecessary anger and im sorry if i had vented out these disappointments and anger to innocent ppl around me.

I honestly do missed all my collegues in hospital. They are the best collegues in the whole world. I dont know where else i can find such helpful, selfless collegues if not here. Even though now we are now scattered all over the peninsula, hope everyone is doing well and hope we can meet up and bergossip someday:)

So yea, now im thrown out of the hospital, in Klinik Kesihatan Simpang Empat which is right opposite the river. How therapeutic.:P
Kak Ch’ng ( my dispenser) once told me, since im just waiting to get transferred, might as well go to kk rather than staying in hosp. At least i get to learn how to do management and run the pharmacy rather than just doing routine work under some boss’ preying eyes. She was right. But that means more work since im the only pharmacist there:(..I am still new to keeping up with stock movement deadlines, shopping for meds, reports, endless statistics, MTAC, etc…zzz…I also have to be in charge of another kk nearby and 5 klinik desa god help me i suddenly feel like 365 days in a year is not gonna be enough. I am not complaining. Being able to get out of the hosp is a change i needed. Being busy means i have no time to think how much i hate Perlis haha.

I dont have new year resolution. Just one wish; I hope i can get out of this place soon! I mustve been naughty last year thats why santa didnt grant my wish:P

I hope this year will be a better and wiser year for all of us.:)

ps; i will try to be less cranky during pms and torture you on monthly basis . WILL TRY

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

one year

and we have not killed each other yet

thanks for being patient with me and doing everything you can to make me happy:P

happy one year to us , my perfect stranger( used to be )

love loads loads

xoxo

ps: thanks loudao for the cute cartoon:):)

Being in the working world opened up my eyes. It really did. It made me realise that scandals u watch on tvbs do happen in real life. You dont actually feel it that much until u watch these things happening around you.

It makes me question the whole sanctity of marriage. And supposedly lifelong commitments.

How distance and loneliness can lure married individuals  succumbing into the darkness of love triangles. Or worse. love square? Does it even exist vocabularily?

And how the desperation for companionship could drive ppl to behave what may be thought of as despicable.

Sometimes i wonder if the phrase ‘i do’ is overrated nowadays.

What happened to the world that used to inspire stories like romeo and juliet?

Does it still exist?

of being away from civilisation

Yes, its been more than 4 months.

Which means ive done 1/3 of my PRP year. And i’ve wished that the year would come to an end since my first day of work.

4 months of being away from skyscrapers, shopping malls and fancy eateries (during weekdays nia la). It has definitely pushed my sanity to the limit not having all these ‘kemudahan’ i used to take for granted when i was surrounded by them. I used to love Penang but ive not been driven to the state of desperation of wanting to go back EVERY weekend when I was still studying in KL. Honestly, even Shah Alam was alright.

I dont exactly love my job so being away from home makes me hate it even more.

I dont mind playing my role as a pharmacist but if my weekends are sucked away doing gotong royong for the hosp, nonsensical ceramahs and what nots i think thats just pure rubbish. Im not even learning anything.

Maybe im not a sawah padi girl. I hate to live in deprivation. I feel inadequate. Im still too young to be living in a slow town. If im 60 then maybe its a different story. For the time being, i just want to be home:(

on a happier note, payday is in 5 days time..wooohooo!!

two oh one oh

year 2009.

a year of achievements.

of learning.

of being a nomad.

of fun and good times.

love.

of lifelong friendships.

of checking out what the other side of the world had to offer.

of having to grow up overnight.

being independent.

i am definitely looking forward to what 2010 has to offer:)

but plspls lemme transfer back to my hometown.ive had enough of being a nomad. that would be my best xmas present this year. not too early to ask for one eh:P must always plan ahead:P

where is the love

An uncle walked in confused with all his hpt,ihd and diabetes medications. He didnt know what was for what. After explaining to him and labelling his meds in kickasss huge handwriting and how to take them, the uncle suddenly told me, ‘sejak makan ubat ini semua, pakcik tak ada tenaga’.

i wondered for awhile what could he possibly mean. I did not know how to ask if its sexual dysfunction delicately.Cos it could be due to his beta-blocker.  So i asked him if its lethargy. He said no.’pakcik tak ada tenaga batin, waktu malam tu lah. tenaga itu la. bila makcik nak bermanja dan bergurau, pakcik tak ada mood, tak cukup tenaga.’

And he was too embarassed to tell the doc. Cos shes a chinese lady. For a moment i thought, huh, am i not one? Minus the doc part. That aside, the pakcik broke down and cried. In front of me.

‘ Saya tak mau makcik salah faham pakcik tak sayang dia lagi. Kamu faham kan, orang tua juga mesti ada kasih sayang. Pakcik sayang makcik, tapi tak cukup tenaga batin. Dulu pakcik askar, memang kuat. Sekarang pakcik malulah.Ini sakit, itu sakit. Bila pakcik malu, pakcik keluar dengan kawan kawan. Takut nanti makcik pula salah faham pakcik berfoya. Cik fahamkan, perempuan memang lebih sensitif.’

He was telling me all these between sobs.

I talked to him a little while sumore and gave him a few options to overcome his probs.

He felt much better when he left the counselling room.

I made a conclusion, his wife is one lucky woman to have a man who still loves her so much at this age. And undertands so perfectly how a woman is like. Envious gila

one month

Today officially marked ONE month i worked in Kangar. I lost track of time till my sister reminded me of my misery haha.

The pros of working in a less busy hospital; u work less compared to others. But mind you, we have our busy days. Just that we are not consistently busy..

The cons; I have 2 researches to complete INDIVIDUALLY. and all the prp requirements were increased. And i know ive complained to MANY ppl. Thanks KK for being as semangat as always helping me think of my title even though it has nth to do with u:)

Given a choice, i would rather work like a dog. period.