One year, and married!

12 Mar

Sorry for abandoning you my dear blog for one whole year. I had been so hyped with wedding preps (well, if you count dilly-dallying as one of them lol) I hardly had anytime to just sit and do nothing. Oh and also we were busy raising our little poodle:p

So far it’s been great being married to your best friend and foe and living under the same roof with him and our precious poodle Mochi whom I will introduce in another post next time. Well, marriage is great as far as two persons are concerned but you can’t really have much lovey dovey time when another person in the house constantly hovers around like some kind of shadow ( talking shadow to be precise) and tags along automatically during MOST outings ( it’s been reduced to SOME nowadays) that’s probably the only part of my current life that I’m discontented about. Maybe because I’ve been missing a lot on privacy. * keep to new year resolution , complain less* Ken had been the most patient hub but sometimes you can also find us in the midst of tugging each other’s hair or dogfights. Pros and cons of living under one roof *smirks*

So that aside will just touch and go briefly on my wedding preps. I
Try to DIY as much as possible due to the insane costs for decor. I also sourced straight to the source aka the florist instead of engaging middle persons like a wedding planner who normally charges u like u own the bank. Am still waiting for official pictures so hope these will appease your eyes:)

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a letter to the 16 year old me

2 Jan

Was browsing through my dashboard and guess what i found.. I totally forgot a post i composed months ago during its hype so here goes…

Dear sixteen year old me,

Just thought you might be interested to know what has happened in the next 10+1 years of your life..

U will spend the beginning of being sweet sixteen getting excited all over the FIRST leather grey crocodile wallet u are gonna get for your birthday ( which was later replaced by a pastel pink wallet you are going to buy in Spore which is more ‘in’ a few years later), U had sweet friends (you know who you are) who actually came over to give you a surprise celebration which ended up with See Mei falling into the drain to save your cake.

Form four will be a difficult year for you as u will struggle with your playful self and deteriorating grades. You will also have a crush on someone who equally had the hots for you and the next thing you know, u will look forward to every tuition class just to see him and exchange notes ( think msn on A4 paper, not real notes duh!) Things will come to a halt pretty quickly when your nerd side takes over and u decide to fully concentrate on your studies after getting nagged by parents and teachers. But you will still remain friends with this guy until today.He is also going to be the reason you are what you are going to be in the future (whether he knows it or not)

And do not fret over your imperfect trials’ grades because u are going to score an awesome straight A1’s which was to everyone’s disbelief LOL. You are going to be in utter shock for the next few weeks and also thanked Buddha at the same time for the fruitful last minute revisions. You will also be very confused to where and what you want to do next. And when u think that you have settled comfortably in Form Six, JPA will tell you that you have secured their scholarship to do a pharmacy twinning program in IMU.

And that, have changed the whole course of your life from the usual form6-public university path that you initially intended to do.
And you will be very thankful to that ‘ form 4 friend’ i mentioned earlier for telling you about the scholarship during a casual MRIC session.(or was it ICQ i cant remember?) but you will find out soon enough:).

And then everything will be a hazy blur as you prepare all the documents needed and say goodbyes and pack your luggage in one week to INTEC, Shah Alam to do your A-Levels. And in the midst of everything your affection will also be torn between two guys which in the end will lead to heartbreaks and you will be called names like ‘tiau keh’ or playgirl after that.

U will also cry on the first week in Shah Alam due to cultural shock but u will make great friends that will last till today and probably forever. (you know who you are). But soon enough, the perks of shopping and the freedom you get being away from home will catch up with you. You will spend ALMOST every weekend in Midvalley or Sunway Pyramid but do please remember to call home and tell mummy that you are safe because she is a worry wart. She will also cry so badly the first 2 days you are away from home so please do console her that you are going to be alright despite leaving home for the first time.

Despite the terrible surrounding, nothing will get in the way of your rebellious self. From breaking curfews to fence climbings, these are going to be memories that you will carry with you forever. Oh and you will also be involved with another love interest which also did not turn out well due to unexplained circumstances. But you guys will have an awesome time together. Still, I will not dwelve into details and let you experience the whole thing for yourself. One thing, you will still remain friends with this person until today.

Things will do pretty well for you and before you know, two whole years would have flown right past you and you will be be preparing to enter IMU where you will be doing your Mpharm degree for the next 3.5 years. Oh and by that time your Nikon Coolpix digital camera would have been an ancient 2years old. It would be a period where having a screen to view pictures was the coolest thing and your 128MB memory card is equivalent to our 32G highspeed card today. But soon you will get bored and upgrade to a Canon Ixus720 during your 21st birthday:)

Everyone will soon notice your passion for shopping and appoint you as the class treasurer which will be ironic because you will be constantly broke but you have whole load of class money in your room. But no, you did not touch a dime to buy that pair of MNG shorts you have been dying to have despite having an almost empty wallet.

U will also participate in cheerleading during your second semester since you grew up reading sweet valley and how cool it made Jessica Wakefield and Lila Fowler being a popular cheerleader in school. But no that would not be the main reason u joined cheerleading. It is going to be due housemate-pressure and curiosity and to see if you actually possess hand-leg coordination, and that would led u to be shortlisted and later, crowned champion:)

Sometime in between, you will be involved in organising other batches’ juniors’ orientation and during one of the station games you will get HIT by a handful of flour by a senior which will blind your eyes for the rest of your lives. U will hate him so much but he will find an excuse to get your number and message you for the next couple of weeks to see if your eyes are okay. You will eventually find out that he actually liked you since the first time he saw you during your first week in IMU but you will play it cool since u do not believe love at first sight He might appear to be freakish but you did not really cast him aside for you needed him to help you with your researches and essays. This may sound selfish but you are going to need him to provide you with all the resources and connection to aid you with information finding during the tedious process of endless papers and essays. And you thought he would realise your ugly intentions and leave you to yourself and just remain friends for the rest of your lives.

But little to your knowledge, he will still not give up and to your subconscious, he will always be there for you wishing you well and calming your exam jitters when you need him. And that will continue until you fly to the UK for your final year. Yes that would be the most awesome year u ever had, jet setting to (almost) every corner of Europe, working part-time, attending wonderful lectures in your sleep and finally falling in love which this guy who had been so persistent vying for your affection since IMU. Yes, his name is Ken, your first official boyfriend(and hopefully the last) and he is going to punish you in the future for making him wait so long:P He is going to treat you so well you will regret for not taking him seriously when you were in Uni.

After graduation and I know you are going to miss all your friends so you are going to take gazillion of pictures with them when you had the chance. Oh before I forget, you would have gotten yourself a DSLR (canon eos 450d) by then and you will be awed by the outcomes you cant live without it.

Fast forward to working, you will be thrown in the most remote northern state of the country where you will be so determined to get your ass back to hometown someday (which you will; after loads of hard work, patience and perseverance). Along the way u will meet the most awesome ppl whom u will stay friends with until today:) (you know who you are)

And then in year 2012, the most important year to your life; where you will secure your first official boyfriend as your husband legally:P, as well as your first home together. You will also take a (small) leap in your career and hopefully another leap few years later:P

Ok thats all for now, the rest of the exciting journey is up to u to discover and create:)

Have a happy new year!

Yes im still alive

3 Jan

Sorry for my 8 months hiatus.
I cant find anything to type about because i dwell too much in my unhappiness in miserable perlis if i were to blog every post would sound like ‘ I Hate Perlis’ or ‘ Perlis is so Pathetic’.

So yea, my high hopes to leave Perlis was crushed when both my application and appeal to go back to my beloved hometown failed due to to the gov’s laziness to do ‘pergerakan jawatan’ end of the year. Its funny how these sloths made this reason sounded so reasonable.

Well, I’ve given up being pissed with the gov, it gives me nightmares and unnecessary anger and im sorry if i had vented out these disappointments and anger to innocent ppl around me.

I honestly do missed all my collegues in hospital. They are the best collegues in the whole world. I dont know where else i can find such helpful, selfless collegues if not here. Even though now we are now scattered all over the peninsula, hope everyone is doing well and hope we can meet up and bergossip someday:)

So yea, now im thrown out of the hospital, in Klinik Kesihatan Simpang Empat which is right opposite the river. How therapeutic.:P
Kak Ch’ng ( my dispenser) once told me, since im just waiting to get transferred, might as well go to kk rather than staying in hosp. At least i get to learn how to do management and run the pharmacy rather than just doing routine work under some boss’ preying eyes. She was right. But that means more work since im the only pharmacist there:(..I am still new to keeping up with stock movement deadlines, shopping for meds, reports, endless statistics, MTAC, etc…zzz…I also have to be in charge of another kk nearby and 5 klinik desa god help me i suddenly feel like 365 days in a year is not gonna be enough. I am not complaining. Being able to get out of the hosp is a change i needed. Being busy means i have no time to think how much i hate Perlis haha.

I dont have new year resolution. Just one wish; I hope i can get out of this place soon! I mustve been naughty last year thats why santa didnt grant my wish:P

I hope this year will be a better and wiser year for all of us.:)

ps; i will try to be less cranky during pms and torture you on monthly basis😛. WILL TRY😛

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

15 Apr

one year

and we have not killed each other yet😛

thanks for being patient with me and doing everything you can to make me happy:P

happy one year to us , my perfect stranger( used to be :P)

love loads loads

xoxo

ps: thanks loudao for the cute cartoon:):)

18 Mar

Being in the working world opened up my eyes. It really did. It made me realise that scandals u watch on tvbs do happen in real life. You dont actually feel it that much until u watch these things happening around you.

It makes me question the whole sanctity of marriage. And supposedly lifelong commitments.

How distance and loneliness can lure married individuals  succumbing into the darkness of love triangles. Or worse. love square? Does it even exist vocabularily?

And how the desperation for companionship could drive ppl to behave what may be thought of as despicable.

Sometimes i wonder if the phrase ‘i do’ is overrated nowadays.

What happened to the world that used to inspire stories like romeo and juliet?

Does it still exist?

of being away from civilisation

20 Jan

Yes, its been more than 4 months.

Which means ive done 1/3 of my PRP year. And i’ve wished that the year would come to an end since my first day of work.

4 months of being away from skyscrapers, shopping malls and fancy eateries (during weekdays nia la). It has definitely pushed my sanity to the limit not having all these ‘kemudahan’ i used to take for granted when i was surrounded by them. I used to love Penang but ive not been driven to the state of desperation of wanting to go back EVERY weekend when I was still studying in KL. Honestly, even Shah Alam was alright.

I dont exactly love my job so being away from home makes me hate it even more.

I dont mind playing my role as a pharmacist but if my weekends are sucked away doing gotong royong for the hosp, nonsensical ceramahs and what nots i think thats just pure rubbish. Im not even learning anything.

Maybe im not a sawah padi girl. I hate to live in deprivation. I feel inadequate. Im still too young to be living in a slow town. If im 60 then maybe its a different story. For the time being, i just want to be home:(

on a happier note, payday is in 5 days time..wooohooo!!

two oh one oh

4 Jan

year 2009.

a year of achievements.

of learning.

of being a nomad.

of fun and good times.

love.

of lifelong friendships.

of checking out what the other side of the world had to offer.

of having to grow up overnight.

being independent.

i am definitely looking forward to what 2010 has to offer:)

but plspls lemme transfer back to my hometown.ive had enough of being a nomad. that would be my best xmas present this year. not too early to ask for one eh:P must always plan ahead:P

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